how do you maintain professionalism in an awkward situation? how do you educate, without becoming condescending when you've already explained and explained? how not to lose your cool or control? how do you not care when your tendency is to care too much? and what should you wear?
what about making someone understand when they do not? how is it done? you have explained to no avail. you have written to no avail. and still understanding is but a dim light on the horizon. and that light could be an oncoming train and not the end of the tunnel you desire. do you enter the tunnel or are you already in it?
perhaps achieving a place where i can let go is best for me. letting go of project, of process, of caring. because there are other things i care about...house and home and creativity and child and friends and travel and life. and i am not my job.
life is an endless chain of proving yourself, so i will prove again that i know i what i’m doing (because i do) and the results will speak for themselves. nothing else should be necessary.
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you see, blogging is cheaper than therapy.
