one interesting thing that happened to me while i was working with mal on polishing the post, was that for the first time, i put some thought into why i don't use traditional capital letters in my blog writing. these days, i find that i'm so accustomed to NOT capitalizing (except for dramatic effect), it's actually a bit difficult for me in my work-related writing to use proper capitals.
i found myself explaining to mal why i didn't use capital letters and what came out was interesting, even to myself, because until i typed it out, i honestly hadn't thought about it before. i had completely unconsciously decided not to use capitals and as it turns out, it was for a very good reason. it was actually the first step in my healing process after leaving my job.
you see, the company, which religiously uses personality profiling and a logic test in their recruitment process, uses those scores as part of their plot to build you into a little ego machine..flattering you that only the best of the best get in to work for them...and you become this very Me Me Me I Am So Great person. it's actually a diabolical part of how they convince you to work 60 hours a week and travel 200 days a year and more than a little ironic in light of the fact that one of the company values is supposedly "humbleness." i realized that i abandoned the capital letters when i began blogging because it felt like a way to step away from that over-inflated ego/sense of importance i had acquired working there.
so that's why although you may still see plenty of traces of ego here on moments of perfect clarity, you don't see that many capital letters.
