Wednesday, July 22, 2009

secret 22 - i'm a bad, bad mom


so, a few years ago, when sabin was still going to her børnehave (kindergarten or pre-school as we'd call it in the states), i was in mumbai, trying on gorgeous sparkling loungewear. just moments after this shot was taken, my phone rang. it was the børnehave, calling to say that sabin hadn't been picked up and well, they'd really like to close, so could i please come and get her. oh the horror!! i was three (and a half) time zones away and may as well have been on the moon, rather than the couple of blocks away i'd have been if i'd been home.  thankfully, while i was on the phone with them, our neighbor girl, who picked sabin up regularly and was a kind of nanny, showed up. she'd been scheduled to pick sabin up that day and had been delayed leaving her real job, so she was running late. so my panic subsided.

but it did cross my mind that maybe i should be there for sabin a little bit more on a daily basis, so that she wasn't the last kid picked up every day from school. it took almost two years for that to sink in and become a reality. but you'll be glad to know that i'm a much slightly better mom today. these days i only occasionally put her on a trans-atlantic flight by herself, make her sit in monkey class, force her to stay in dumpy eastern european youth hostels with no room service or leave her all alone as the only member of our family in the country (just for a few hours).

oh, and after all those gorgeous things i tried on, i didn't end up buying a single thing.

p.s. picture is from december 2005, so hopefully i look nothing like this anymore...hair is quite a lot longer in any case.

10 comments:

Vancouver's Enviro Girl said...

Oh J! There you are, in full! And so pretty! Yay!

Bill Stankus said...

So, is "Gypsy Woman" a favorite song?

Just Jules said...

ok, those pants - I want them.

now moving on.

Hmmm what is a mom to do, it isn't like you didn't schedule someone to pick up your daughter - leaving her stranded totally.

But, good to know you are around more often - and hey, you always have a story for the therapist :)

The Novelista Barista said...

great outfit though!!!

Fidgeting Gidget said...

OOooh, someone is using their newfound knowledge to put those vivid fabrics on my page in full size! That looked like such fun. And it doesn't make you a bad mom, but I bet your stomach really did drop when you got that phone call!

Pattern and Perspective said...

You are such a world traveler! I love those sparkly things and that store is beyond colorful! I wouldn't say you a bad mom (then)! You do what you have to do. Weren't you in Mumbai for work?

The Redhead Riter said...

Look at all the pretty color fabric lining the walls all folded nicely!

Enjoy every moment you can with your daughter. They will fly back faster than you can believe.


Hope you experienced a wonderfully fantastic Tuesday!

Char said...

:) cute outfit - too bad you didn't like it

I'm Kim, by the way said...

You didn't keep the outfit? It looks spectacular! I might have made my kid wait a few more minutes because I would wear that every day!

One time, when my husband was out of town, my son's preschool called me to tell me he had a fever. I didn't learn about this until after I turned my phone on again, which was after my massage was finished. Oops.

Gwen said...

"monkey class" made me laugh. as we call our girls "monkey" that seems like the exact right place for them.