my guest post is now up at turning*turning. i'd like to thank mal* very much for giving me the opportunity to share my thoughts on my creative space with her readers. and i urge you to all go check it out and do stay to read her blog as well, there's lots of good stuff there!
one interesting thing that happened to me while i was working with mal on polishing the post, was that for the first time, i put some thought into why i don't use traditional capital letters in my blog writing. these days, i find that i'm so accustomed to NOT capitalizing (except for dramatic effect), it's actually a bit difficult for me in my work-related writing to use proper capitals.
i found myself explaining to mal why i didn't use capital letters and what came out was interesting, even to myself, because until i typed it out, i honestly hadn't thought about it before. i had completely unconsciously decided not to use capitals and as it turns out, it was for a very good reason. it was actually the first step in my healing process after leaving my job.
you see, the company, which religiously uses personality profiling and a logic test in their recruitment process, uses those scores as part of their plot to build you into a little ego machine..flattering you that only the best of the best get in to work for them...and you become this very Me Me Me I Am So Great person. it's actually a diabolical part of how they convince you to work 60 hours a week and travel 200 days a year and more than a little ironic in light of the fact that one of the company values is supposedly "humbleness." i realized that i abandoned the capital letters when i began blogging because it felt like a way to step away from that over-inflated ego/sense of importance i had acquired working there.
so that's why although you may still see plenty of traces of ego here on moments of perfect clarity, you don't see that many capital letters.