22/02/2022

it's one of those auspicious dates. at least according to the internet. and since 22 has always been my number (thanks to my birthday being march 22), it does genuinely feel like it might be. all the woo woo folks on tiktok (there is something i love about how buttery and reassuring this woman's voice is) are saying you should send your wildest dreams out into the universe today, because on this auspicious date, the universe will be listening. i'm not sure i really buy that, but it does seem worth a try.

what's makes me think there might be something to it is that when i went out to feed the chickens and the outdoor kitties, it was sunny and there was a hint of spring in the air. the birds were all twittering like they could feel it too. 

i think what i most want to manifest on this day is positivity. it can be so easy to fall into negativity and complaining, especially when you're a person who says sarcastic or cynical things for a laugh. but i want positivity in my life, so it seems like the best thing to manifest on this auspicious day. so i'm going to be positive and spread positive vibes. when i would go for the laugh with a negative wisecrack or say something shady (also for a laugh), i'm going to be positive instead. sending positivity into the universe will surely bring it back to me - and with it will be all those other things that people manifest, like success and wealth and health and love. and who can't use more of those things? in any case, it's worth a try. 

what are you manifesting today?

11/12.13

ahh, it's one of those rows of numbers to which we ascribe significance. is it lucky? is it auspicious? do i need to create some sort of ceremony around it? if i don't, will bad luck befall me? or will i miss the only chance ever to be able to use the in-a-rowness of these particular numbers? what about the fact that americans think the portentous date happened back in november, due to a writing convention that says month-date-year rather than date-month-year, like the rest of the world? is this my last chance at luck? significance? fate?

probably not.

but just in case, one does feel some kind of need to mark the day. to have it be different or better somehow. i will admit to a bubbling optimism in my mood today (after a trainwreck of a monday and a blah tuesday). my mind is brimming with ideas. i feel motivated and energetic. optimistic. happy. i want to write and sew and bake christmas cookies and even, yes, fold the laundry. i'm feeling optimistic about laundry. it's that good.

maybe there is something in the air. and maybe it can be captured. maybe it can't and you just have to ride with it and enjoy it while it lasts.

whatever it is, something has shifted. my wait isn't yet over, but it suddenly seems bearable and i feel optimistic about the outcome. whether it's the due to 11/12.13 or not, i'll take it.

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speaking of cheery optimism,

go play with this, by the good folks at moo.

12.12.12

yet again, the interwebs are abuzz with what is seen as an auspicious date - 12.12.12. we won't actually see another of these in my lifetime, as there won't be a 13.13.13 or a 14.14.14 - that makes me wonder whether i've used them wisely. if a line of numbers can mean something, did i make the right wishes or do the right actions on those significant dates? or does it matter more to take the right steps every day? (one could hope so.)

but, on the off chance that it might mean something to think about and write down the things i'd like to manifest in my life here and now while the numbers are aligned, i'm going to do so today. some of it in my art journal and a little bit here. because sometimes you're just not ready to speak all of your wishes out loud. but a couple of them won't hurt, if writing is indeed the new praying.

i'm very hopeful about my business in the year ahead. it's been slow and a bit up and down this year, but we've learned a lot and have many projects buzzing on the horizon. i want to see those to fruition and be open to where they take me.

my dad will turn 80 next year and we (husband and sabin and me) want to be there for his 80th birthday. i want us to go for his birthday and stay until new year's (that's pretty much most of december). we want to travel a bit in the US while we're there - go skiing and visit friends (and sights) in the desert southwest. i'm going to work hard to be able to afford that trip - both financially and the time off it will take.

maybe these things are really just a question of setting a goal and working towards it. what do you think? will you make any wishes today?

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a bit of bitterness on the rise of eBooks. frankly, i think we need to just get over it with this, see it as the democratization of the writing profession (what gets published is no longer determined by a closed group of elite publishers), and get writing.

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it seems russians (and probably a lot of others) are still struggling to understand americans.