Thursday, March 11, 2010

fast forward transition

some snow melted, but not all. and hoarfrost on the trees. hurry up spring!
we've been waiting and waiting all week. and we've realized that waiting bites. and instead of being productive and getting things done, the waiting paralyzes you and you stare into space and can't think straight and your arm falls asleep while you're knitting (is that supposed to happen?). you wander listlessly around the house, thinking about how much packing there is to do, but it doesn't really result in you actually doing any of it. Your mind wanders off to that dog sled that should have reached that guy you want to buy the house from wherever he is in the northern reaches of canada. you talked to the realtor yesterday, but he was as laid back as his accent and not at all worried that the guy hadn't answered yet. you asked in a slightly hysterical voice if they had in fact really sent a dog sled. he pretends he knows what you're talking about and laughs.

it seems that your new job will start a whole lot sooner than you thought, which is both good and bad. because you haven't used your time all that wisely and now suddenly you won't have any. but on the other hand, it will undoubtedly be good for you to dress in normal clothes, fix your hair and put on makeup and go out among people on a daily basis. your photo-a-day project may suffer and focus rather too frequently on the wind turbine just outside your new office window. but time will tell.

time will tell on all of it and time takes its sweet time. so strange how it can both crawl at a snail's pace and race by in the same instant. but time is mysterious that way. and life is full of contradictions.

15 comments:

Elizabeth said...

Know all about waiting, have the feeling my life exist by travelling from one waiting period to the other. This can be VERY annoying.

Protege said...

Beautiful sentiments. A change is always a bit unsettling, it brings the best and the worst out in us.;)
Yes, the landscape around here on Monday morning looked like it was Christmas.
Here we still have snow, but it is melting. Hopefully this is the last of it.
xo
Zuzana

Jelica said...

I like your thoughts on waiting, you summed it up so well. Very happy about your new job, though! Good luck and a good start :)

Jill C. said...

I agree, waiting does "bite". I hope that dog sled got to it destination! Good luck with your new job!

NuminosityBeads said...

I like the way that you wrote this. It kind of pulled me in. Surprisingly we woke up to snow here in Arizona just a few miles from the Mexican border.
My other Alaskan home has followed me here I guess.

Kim

Amy said...

that photograph is rocking my world right now.

Polly said...

good luck with all those transitions, interesting times, so many big changes and big decisions all happening at once

I hope your photo-a-day doesn't suffer, I'd imagine you'll see a lot more in that wind turbine than others

Lisa-Marie said...

Einstein said that 'the only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once'.

I think this is true of you situation - time is getting in the way of your things happening, and also making some happen!

It must feel a bit like being in limbo.

Megan said...

yes waiting is a bitch, unless you're waiting for...hmm I was going to think of something clever that waiting for would be good, but I can't seem to think of anything at the moment.

i do hope that dog sled gets to and from it's destination soon!

Magpie said...

The photo is so cool - it's like three different worlds, all right there. You sure you didn't cut and paste? (I know you didn't.)

Kaye Turner said...

Fantastic photo.
We are waiting to sell our house too, and I know exactly what you mean about what 'waiting' is. I've found it to be paralysing too, although hadn't realised it until I just read your words. I've found that it saps energy that could be going more productively into other things. Here's hoping that time brings us a swift result.

B said...

Exciting things are about to happen! I know what you mean about waiting... and you only realize you didn't make the most of the wait when it's too late... Good luck with all these transitions!

mrs mediocrity said...

that image is incredible, love the juxtaposition of the field against the snow and frost...
don't they say time conquers all? I am always amazed at the way, somehow, we manage to fit it all in, even as the to-do list continues to grow.
deep breaths come in handy...

Deborah said...

Nice photo! Even though the name of my blog was originally for a specific time during my life, I'm still waiting . . .

beth said...

that paralyzing feeling....I know it too well....too many moves will do that to a girl....and then the moving men show up and off I go again...